Well, I do believe I owe you an apology. I haven’t made myself known for a bit. The last time I blogged was about a year ago. For an update, I decided to return to school and become an Esthetician. The program was very fast paced with quite a bit of homework. I have since graduated and received my state license. Now I am about to move to another town so my life is quite upside down. But I see my Heavenly Father’s hand in every step and process. So many details coming together just amaze me. I hope the future will bring more posts on how much my Father in heaven loves and continues to work in me. Blessings to all of you.
I know I haven’t been heard from in awhile and to be honest I am struggling with my current circumstances. I had three major events occur pretty much all in a small window of time. I shut down my nail business because my hands were cracking and bleeding regularly and was probably due to the chemicals. I completed our taxes to discover we have a fairly large bill due, ugh! And my daughter who is disabled took incredible advantage of us during all of this. I’m grieving the loss of my business and income, I really enjoyed doing nails. The tax bill caught us completely off guard. And my daughter to add to the mix not only invoked anger but disappointment. And with all this “stress” I have gained almost all my weight back I had just lost.
During this I can see that Christ has never left my side. Bits of encouragement along the way. Recently we had Chinese food and my fortune cookie had this saying in it: “All personal breakthroughs begin with a change in beliefs.” Thank you Jesus. The tax bill has been paid in full. Thank you Jesus, again. My daughter and I will get this circumstance behind us soon.
It would be real easy to go to the daisy game of “He loves me, He loves me not.” I know my feelings want to dictate otherwise but I am fully loved no matter where I am in life or circumstances. There is nothing I can do to make Jesus love me more; there is nothing I can do make Jesus love me less. That is where I can trust him to grow me in this season of uncomfortable circumstances. I am beginning to wonder what he is working out in me and what the picture will look like after the work is done. Therein lies my hope….powerful incentive to move on.
This weekend has had the bottom fall out on me. It began with the idea of having a productive weekend on garden and yard chores that ended with a complete and total shut down emotionally. It began with asking a question in where the response was like the expression of rebellious teenager. It caught me so off guard. The thoughts came rushing in. Why am I being treated this way? This is now the third or fourth time. Why is he so angry with me? Then it goes to the thought of “I refuse to be the object of his wrath.” Then my shut down began to rock his world. How easy it is to get off track.
Now that the weekend has ended and discussions have ensued to clear up the matter. It has exhausted my energy. But even with that I still know all is well with my relationship with Jesus. That is because I believe what he says about me. The essence is that no matter what happens in my world I am still eternally accepted, eternally significant, and eternally secure. Faults and all. This is where we can rest and not beat up ourselves over and over again. This is were we rest and know that tomorrow is a different and new day. Lamentations 3:22-24 – “Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
If you’re world is being rocked or disrupted, you have one you can run to and fall into. He’s there to hold you and nurture you. And even if you failed He still loves you immensely and is willing to walk through it with you to complete healing and wholeness.
“He (Father God) made Him (Jesus Christ) who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” 2 Corinthians 5:21
“He has not dealt with us according to our sins, nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. Just as a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him.” Psalm 103:10-13
It is so amazing that when we come to Christ we are as if we never sinned and are in perfect relationship with Him. But as life continues we continue to see our failures and weaknesses that lead us to sin. We start losing the picture of being a new creature. But when we see our faults our focus is not on Christ, it is on ourselves. Christ does not have to return to the cross in order to clean our slate again. He did it once and for all time. The purchase of our redemption has paid our debt for all time. If you struggle seeing this truth in your life, it is based on your belief. Here is where Faith kicks in. I am completely perfect in Him no matter what I do. I love that his love for me is not based on what I do. But I see that I need Him more than anything else in my life so I am in love with Him. When you are in love you are more than happy to give your lover the desires of his heart. Let’s celebrate what our generous Lord and Savior has done for us. We will see our resurrection soon when Jesus returns and takes us to be with Him.
Let me introduce myself…..
I have been in church for most of my life. I have attempted to be the “gold star” Christian and yet miserably failed. I have been discouraged when my willpower failed me. I didn’t understand how God could love me after that really BIG sin. I am glad the Holy Spirit prompted me to dig deeper.
Unfortunately, when Jesus is presented, the message tends to be muddled and complicated. Yet, His message is very simple. Jesus loves you and wants to be in relationship with you. A healthy relationship is one where there is freedom to be yourself with no guilt, shame, fear and pride. Due to our human nature if any of these are present in a relationship, we will tend to hide from the one we are in relationship with.
I am here to announce that the finished work of Jesus Christ has abolished all of those. To walk victoriously we must believe who He says we are in Him. My purpose, is to introduce you to that Jesus. If you already know Him that way then I will be an encouragement. If you don’t, I hope my perspective will lead you to a real and authentic relationship with the Savior, Jesus Christ.