This weekend has had the bottom fall out on me. It began with the idea of having a productive weekend on garden and yard chores that ended with a complete and total shut down emotionally. It began with asking a question in where the response was like the expression of rebellious teenager. It caught me so off guard. The thoughts came rushing in. Why am I being treated this way? This is now the third or fourth time. Why is he so angry with me? Then it goes to the thought of “I refuse to be the object of his wrath.” Then my shut down began to rock his world. How easy it is to get off track.
Now that the weekend has ended and discussions have ensued to clear up the matter. It has exhausted my energy. But even with that I still know all is well with my relationship with Jesus. That is because I believe what he says about me. The essence is that no matter what happens in my world I am still eternally accepted, eternally significant, and eternally secure. Faults and all. This is where we can rest and not beat up ourselves over and over again. This is were we rest and know that tomorrow is a different and new day. Lamentations 3:22-24 – “Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
If you’re world is being rocked or disrupted, you have one you can run to and fall into. He’s there to hold you and nurture you. And even if you failed He still loves you immensely and is willing to walk through it with you to complete healing and wholeness.